be with me

you are so far away

yet I want to meet you

I can't reach your voice

but I want to hear you

I want to go there

but I am not able to

I don't want to go beyond this

because I don't want to lose you

I don't know why is this happening

but yet I can't figure this out

I want to go out from this

but I just can't reach it out

I still don't understand myself

please don't blame me

I want to be with you always

please don't leave me

I want to be by your side

please be with me

no issues

kadang2 xde issue pun yang perlu dibangkitkan

tapi kepala otak serabut fikir

tak tahu kenapa

i mean 

there are things to be said

or discussed

or whatever

but still

we always think that

there's always something

wondering around

inside your head

forcing you to understand it by yourself

tapi aku tanya kat diri

" apa yang aku fikir nie? "

macam masalah budak tak de kerja

kan?

so lame =='

and there's a time

bila tiba2 kau tak de mood

macam down serious down

tapi macam tak tahu apa masalah kau

aku tak tahu lah aku jer ke yg ada masalah nie

tapi when this happen

sometimes aku tahu apa masalahnya

cuma tak tahu nak cerita

atau we are waiting for the right person to listen to it

well this might relate to

what we think others will think about us

you know like ...

bila kau asyik cerita masalah cinta ( or apa2 masalah pun )

kau rasa orang lain macam menyampah nak dengar

when sometimes 

ada jer yg best listener 

who want to listen to that

we always confining ourselves with this assumption

that others will think us this way that way

and this doesn't help to make us better for God sake

kadang-kadang rasa lagi serabut ada

aku rasa

biar jer lah apa yang orang nak cakap

macam cth aku post merepek kat sini

if you like it , thank God

if you dont , i still appreciate it coz you read till the end :)

being positive is good aite ? :D

for me

motivating others tu kadang2 akan buat kita motivate diri kita sendiri

buat kita ingat fakta2 yang akan buat orang tu be better

dan dalam masa yang sama 

buat diri sendiri ingat benda2 baik

yang ada dalam kepala

you know

bila kau fikir benda yang tersasar dari fitrah dan fikrah

beristighfar lah banyak2

ia akan membantu diri kita jadi lebih tenang 

aku harap aku boleh jadi matured sikit 

utk tangani masalah aku 

menerawang asyik rasa macam selalu ada masalah jer

haha

ok peeps

take care :)

p/s : 

aku tgh dengar playlist lagu My Girl 

sambil menaip sebab baru habis menonton 

cerita itu buat kesian kalinya

happy sebab jumpa satu file of the OST dekat 4shared :)

misinterpretation

hello

hai all

today i wanna talk about misinterpretation

I would say that this might be one of them lame issue to talk about

but believe me

this always happen

i don't know whether this is just my instinct on something

or what ever that people say

but misterpretation always exist

here and there

this is focused on relationships

never mind whether it is for your friend

or whoever that you knew

I do have a problem with people who always misinterpret what i said

i think perhaps i am the only party who think that way

i don't know

but you know when it comes to the situation that 

you talk a lot and people starts to angry with you

or when i ask different question

he/she will reply it differently

which makes me think

whether i have asked wrong question or 

you are the one who did not understand about it

well this goes on and on

i don't have courage to ask

or to know any further

whether he/she misterpret with what I said

so I just go with the flow of conversations

or on the other case

i am being good to someone

which others interpret it as

i LIKE that person

which actually I am NOT

lets say if i talk with you a lot

or hang out with you a lot

or whatever whatever whatever

doesn't mean that I have the same intention

yeah i mean , to LIKE you

ehm

i don't know

well

the safe way to go

is to stop talking with them

to avoid all these misinterpretation

i mean , 

not talking to them that frequent

especially to guys

i dont think if I am doing the same to girls

that might shows that I am weird

haha

nvm

well I would say

I do have more boy friends

compared to girls

and that makes others think that I am 'bad' too

even if I think I don't care what others say

this is kinda tired to avoid to

you know the feeling of not being in comfort zone

when you are with your friends

well 

I hope that I could do better in social life

not only in social sites only

take care all :)

it is not easy to be a housewife

have you ever thought that being a housewife is the easiest job to do?

well i will say that it is not that way

you know

starting early in the morning

they have to boil the water , think on what to prepare for breakfast

then waking up the children

then thinking of what the husband would want to wear to work

ironing their clothes

perhaps her husband want to bring some food to office

then cleaning up the table

start to do the laundry

hang them up , and pick them up when it's already dry

think on what to cook for lunch

buying things for the preparation

dinner

tea time

supper

bla bla bla

that is not included when the husband are depending 

on her for children's education

for cleaning up the house

for this for that

you know

EVERYTHING 

have you ever thought

when you lost you socks or even t shirt

who are you calling to get them back?

your mom right?

how do you ask her for it?

yelling and waiting for her to get things back?

or try to look first and then you ask her?

which one?

if your mom ask you to get it by yourself

have you ever say to her as

" what have you done at home? you are the one whose doing the cleaning and things "

have you ever say like that to her?

LOL

well

i dont wanna say anything

but hey you could think that by yourselves

only when she wants to lay down and rest

that is when you want to look everything in this world

mom , where is my this , bla bla bla

consideration is needed

you could find it by yourself at first right?

yeah at least

have you ever see your mom or wife laying down to rest

then you say

" hey , do some works , prepare the dinner or whatever ,

dont just laying down like that , i am tired coz i just came back from work "

you know that when you came back from work or school

or whenever you have been before

she has done everything in the house from morning till night

non stop

and when she wanna have a rest

yet you say she hasn't do anything?

lets say if a wife is working

she still need to do the same

when the husband are resting and waiting for the rest to be prepared

that is not the right way i guess

you know

everything will be easier if you do have some consideration

if we help each other to make some move with the house chores or whatever

that would be better right?

so what i am trying to say is that

try to appreciate what you mom / wife or whoever in this world

that has done everything for you

you know to let the house to be in harmonious way

everybody should get involve in it

not only by one party or some party

having family is the same as having a management in the office

when once you rely on one party to do the job

you will never beat the rest in terms of profit and quality management

lets have a thought about this

and makes some move to make things better

i would try the same here

so 

take care everyone

be someone who could contribute something to your house hold ;)

THE TOWER - with trailer in eng sub :)

hye

yesterday i have such a great day with my roommates

the last day of our semester

so we have decided to watch a movie

here it is

THE TOWER

it is a korean movie

telling about a tower called SKY TOWER

it start with the enjoyment of celebrating christmas eve

 ends with a tragedy of

the fall of the tower

and most of the occupants of the tower died

in this story

the problem of the case start from such a small problem

when the equipment to stop the fire were not in a good condition

and this was told by a worker there

non of the rest take serious about that matter

and it end up seriously

when the whole tower was in burn

this is seriously pertain a lot of people as it was viewed that this is one of the highest tower built

at the other part

this story also emphasize on how fireman works and sacrifice themselves

to save other people

on of the good view in the story

i was thinking that

in my opinion

if in real life

if in anything that we do

we could cooperate with each other

upper and lower management

that would be the best

so far

i could say that this movie is awesome

try to have a look at it

have fun then

take care :)

stay awake

" early morning , she wakes up , knock knock on the door "

haha 

pernah dengar lagu ni tak?

its britney's song - LUCKY 

tak tau kenapa galak sangat nak guna lirik lagu lama

haha

well this morning

i woke up early

i cant sleep last night

dah nak pukul 3.30 am baru boleh tidur kot

( mana nak sedar kan kalau dah tidur :P )

so macam mengantuk sangat ni

alahai

tapi dah biasa rutin macam tuh

so padan muka sendiri lah kan

nanti kena belajar betulkan balik lah

so last paper

esok ... petang

ehm , kat kolej ni

mostly dah balik

and faham tak perasaan bila kau exam

hari last

waktu paling last

-____-

paper aku

LAW245

2.15 pm - 5.15 pm

wish us luck :D

so i've done with my laundry

sekarang hadap benda alah ni

sebab takut aku tidur balik

( tah pape tah alasan :P )

anyhow

i wish i could be more productive today :)

May Allah bless us always :)

take care

XOXO 

picture of the day 

long way to go

being 20 is not that easy i know

jumpa kawan2 masa sekolah

ramai dah ada plan nak kahwin dah

(like seriously?)

ouh my , yes

am still here waiting for a prince to come 

(ecewah)

sebenarnya aku pun xtau nak rasa apa

susahlaa benda nie

susah nak interpret macam mana

aku rasa macam malas nak fikir

mungkin belum masanya

aku kena plan balik apa aku nak

masalahnya aku rasa macam

" why i feel so ALONE? "

memanglaa semua benda aku buat mostly nya sorang

(excluded for things decided by parents)

tapi rasa macam

aku tertinggal kat belakang

kot

ntah

kalau dalam bab cinta2 kau please jgn tnya aku

aku x pro

hati sendiri pun aku xtau haha

muda lagi kot

kot

but in chasing my dreams

aku rasa aku kena buat plan balik

rasa macam dah lari sikit

aku kena belajar bnyk lagi

serious bnyk sgt aku BELAJAR !!!

penatlaa tulis macam ni

haha

skrg dalam mood yg mana aku rasa

aku sangat x perlu over dalam apa2 yg aku cakap

*bajet*

tapi entahlaa 

aku pelik sikit malam nie

mungkin lepas paper akaun tadi kot?

haha

mata aku penat gi le sekarang

aku kurang tidur kot

bangun2 terus hadap laptop buku akaun

erk =_=

the paper was ok

hope for the best result

inshaa Allah

aku ada lagi satu paper jer lagi

which is LAW245

stands for Malaysian Legal System

( different laa from what student law belajar )

*obviously

so konklusinya

1- love , i think i'll shouldn't really concentrate on that much (idk what to say)

whatever

2- bnyk sgt benda aku nak kena kejar , 

makanya , aku perlu buat TO DO list kembali

short and long term list

3 - semester satu degree dah nak habis , 

makanya perlu bersedia utk semester yang akan datang

4 - aku bnyak cakap , kalau aku pelik tu mesti ada something.

malam nie aku x bnyk cakap ...sebab , penat nak cakap bnyk2

haha

*sumimasen*

5 - good luck to all in whatever that you do

so thats it

xde structure sgt

if you do the reading thanks a lot :)

semoga berjaya pada those yg akan mengambil LAW245

moga Allah permudahkan kita semua

take care

^_^

gambatte kudasai :)

my first video :)

this is about my final examination :P

1-  CSC413

2-  MAT112

3-  CTU551

4-  ADS410

5-  ACC114

6-  LAW245

please ignore the grammar mistakes

and the noise behind it

hope you enjoy it :)

p/s : i'll appreciate your comment if you have any :)

good luck everyone !!!

a day with kak rufa and ...

hari ni

aku berjalan di IKEA hampir satu hari

dari pagi sampai ke petang

honestly

this is the first time aku ke sana

aku pergi dengan kak rufa

hehe

am gonna say

IKEA use an interesting inter phase to attract their customer

first2 tadi kitorg pergi showroom dia

dekat showroom nie dia lebih tunjukkan konsep

how you want to use their product for your house

aq suka konsep 2 gambar di atas

blue , lepas tu ada lampu2 bagai

i mean , i preferred to have simple bedroom

idk , saja nak berangan kejap kan

haa

teringin nak meja study besar macam nie

sorang2 jer conquer

haha

preferable

take white color for wider view of an environment laa

ruang kecil nampak luas

ecewah 

bajet macam interior designer lah pulak kan

this is for those who have kids

yeah 

this is kinda cool too :3

would love to have these lamps :)

haha 

so dah tgk showroom apa semua

am thinking

like wow 

how can they have such a great idea to have all these concepts?

and then bila dah tgk barang2 and concept2 dekat showroom

dia ada number for each item yang dia pamerkan

and you just have to write on it

later on nanti

bila nak choose dekat bawah tu kira senanglaa

ok dah habis jalan2 semua

kitorg pergi makan

hehe

so since ramai yang suka makan meatball kat ikea

so aku try makan

it was delicious :)

haa 

nie apa yang kitorg semua makan :)

kenyang kot (Y)

ok laa

aku pun x makan banyak pun kan

so 

dah penat apa semua

kitorang makan ice cream

buat sendiri kot

*actually just tekan a button , lepas tu ice cream tu keluar sendiri :P

try to have a visit to ikea if you haven't do that

so yeah

till next entry :)

p/s : all the pictures are credited to the showroom of ikea's

pisau kata

biar mereka berkata kata

aku pedulikan

aku tahu mereka tiada kaitan

tapi aku tahu

dalam hati yang padat ini

aku sorokkan pisau belati

buat perisai dari hati yang mati

kerana busuk x bererti

memancing rasa membunuh dalam diri

kau tahu

kata2 kau macam puaka

tak mengenal hati dan perasaan manusia

kerana kau hidup dalam awan jingga

mati busuk tiada siapa sangka

kenapa?

kerana kau tiada hati

cakap macam xde otak berbudi

aku doa seorang diri

biar kau berasa

pengalaman jatuh berdiri

tidak hidup berpaksikan fantasi

kerana apa?

kerana aku tiada rasa utk menjatuhkan

aku mahu kau bangkit sebagai manusia

bukan syaitan bertopengkan identiti

biar kau rasa

hidup ini perjudian langkah

bukan bergoyang kaki semata

kerana 

aku mahu kau sedar

hidup ini tidak mudah

FEARS ??? let it go !!!

retrieved from : ( the link stated in the picture)  

DREAM : hey you , chase me

ME : why should I? Am not good to do that

DREAM : Why is that so? You have all those good values inside yourself

ME : but I am afraid that people will laugh at me

DREAM : why care about others when you are doing the right thing?

it is good to chase on good dreams

ME : is that so? am I capable to do that?

DREAM : If you believe in yourself , I am sure that you can.

DO NOT UNDERESTIMATE YOURSELF !!!

ME : I know , but fear is something that I can't just throw away easily from myself !

DREAM : 

" IF YOU LISTEN TO YOUR FEARS , 

YOU WILL DIE NEVER KNOWING 

WHAT A GREAT PERSON 

YOU MIGHT HAVE BEEN " 

new interphase

aku tahu

dah lama aku x edit interphase blog aku

disebabkan sekarang nie

aku selalu dengan blog dan tumblr

makanya

aku tukar interphase nya

supaya

aku x bosan

haha

what a reason :P

penat kot nak edit semua

dah laa baru habis jawab exam

nak lepas lelah kat sini pulak

somehow tensi aku terubat sedikit

its ok

i'll get back to my work after this

haha

i'll try to make sure that

am gonna say

facebook dan twitter

agak membosankan bila kita hadap hari2

makanya

membaca dan berkongsi cerita mungkin 

adalah perkara yang terbaik

cari kepuasan untuk diri sendiri sudah cukup aku rasa

sebab aku x tahu berapa ramai

yang suka nak baca entry aku

if there's any

thank you so much :)

hehe

so

i hope i'll be good at writing in the future

take care all 

XOXO

uncomfortable

hey there everybody

i just finished my 3rd paper

CTU551

stands for Tamadun Islam & Tamadun Asia paper

ehm

actually since semalam

aku x lalu nak makan

stomachache yang melampau

bangun pagi semalam 

aku makan few slices of breads

and then seriously sakit perut sangat

dari malam before tuh pun dah sakit pun

so apa yg aku makan for lunch tuh 

macam xde effect

makin sakit pulak perut aku nie

malam semalam

aku try makan nasi

sakit perut dah kurang

tapi pagi yang nak exam nie

aku risau takut masa exam aku still sakit perut

tapi aku tahan jer laa

habis paper CTU ( which as stands for TITAS before )

aku ajak Farhana makan kat luar

serious aku cakap kat korang

aku dah xtau nak makan apa

kat dalam kampus nie ha

dah hampir satu sem makan benda yang sama

aku rasa macam dah x lalu sangat

plus aku tahu

kalau aku makan kat situ pun

it still wont really help to increase my appetite

so kitorg makan kat Pizza Hut

haha

macam xde kerja lain en 

makan kat tempat yang mahal

well

duit berkepok kan 

" sangat "

tapi aku tnya kat farhana

kat mana nak makan kat tempat yang worth

tapi x pedas sangat and kenyang

so we went there just now

LOL

grill chicken baked rice & passion hot tea

so

disebabkan nak makan nasi jugak kan

aku order grill chicken baked rice

and passion hot tea for drink

idk why i ordered hot drinks

but am sure air sejuk akan membuatkan 

perut aku lagi sakit

tapi it was nice laa dapat minum air panas

haha

so this is Farhana

a close friend of mine

yang satu kelas dengan aku

pergi kelas sama2

mostly

duduk dalam exam hall pun x pernah jauh

haha

she eat the same dishes as mine

tapi dia minum air soya

aku tnya dia

" x nak minum air tea ke farhana? "

dia cakap

" xmau laa , aku x suka air teh "

haha 

btw thanks farhana sebab teman makan :)

so lunch dah settle

so aku balik rehat apa semua

and here i am now

aku xtau kenapa

tapi aku rasa macam penat sangat

sakit perut dah makin ok

tapi still ada lagi

hope it will get well soon

ehm

our 4th paper is on 12th Jan

ADS 410

INTRODUCTION TO PUBLIC SECTOR QUALITY MANAGEMENT

best sangat belajar subject nie

tapi sangat banyak ye chapter nya

hehe

so

wish us luck yaww

take care loves :)

assumption doesn't help

well

sekarang nie aku sedang

menghadap semangkuk ruski

berperisa tomyam

sambil menaip

di hadap komputer riba tercinta

ecewah ayat

so talking about having simple dishes

kadang - kadang

bukannya makan sebab nak jimat duit jer

* tapi mostly nya macam tuh lah kan *

sometimes the reason

tu macam saja nak enjoy makan makanan ringan ke

or sebab nak rasa jer ke perisa tu sedap ke x

(macam point yang lame jer ==')

or whatever that you think is suitable for that matter

sometimes

people are questioning 

how can she be so slim , but she eats a lot?

how can't I be like her?

oh why is he has such a good body shape?

pretty much to be adore by girls?

well

let me clarify on something

sometimes

it is not what a person want it to be like that

lets say

if I eat a lot

and doesn't seems to gain some weight

that would show that I have a high body metabolism

or sometimes

I dont want to eat much

since dah memang x suka makan banyak 

or memang cara makan family I macam tuh ke?

body shape?

there's no easy way to get the beauty

you have to work on it

do some exercises

( this is based on some observation )

just let yourself enjoy your time of exercising

do it for your health

not to let others to adore you

it wouldn't help much

so 

my point is

do not assume that others can have such a body shape alone

without doing anything on it

perhaps he/she has a good habit that you 

have never seen they do in front of your eyes

who knows that he/she run over when he/she goes to the class?

instead of walking slowly?

who knows if he/she has some particular diseases that makes 

himself/herself be like that

(not pointing to anyone)

who knows who knows who knows

that we do not know

what he/she has done

which can makes others so jealous on them

that they themselves don't know why

this can goes to others aspect too

well on studying

on behavior

on the way of his/her cooking style

ANYTHING

instead of thinking of why others are doing so and so

why not you improve your side to be better?

wouldn't that help?

or why not you take those jealousy 

( perhaps that's the right word )

to motivate you?

well

aku xtau kenapa 

tapi i've found out that

assumption sometimes can makes you feel hurt inside

macam assume benda yang kau xtau

lepas tu kau fikir tah pape

fikir yang positif x pe jugak

nie sebaliknya

kan dah kacau jiwa kau

sometimes am doing the same

that's why rasa macam berani nak cakap

sebab aku fikir2 balik

dari aku sibuk2 kan diri aku fikir pasal orang

baik aku try cari mana positive point yang aku boleh ikut

and adapt kalau boleh

kan dah win2 situation kat situ

x menyusahkan orang lain 

haha ok 

ruski aku pun dah habis

so 

see you later 

^ _ 8

online movie

being so excited bajet stress kan

aku menonton movie macam x ingat dunia

tgk movie online nie best jugak 

haha

save tiket aku tgk wayang

LOLz

yelaa

kalau ada shopping mall

and ada panggung wayang dekat2 mesti best kan?

haha

tapiiiiiii

masalahnya memang xde pun

nak kena jalan jauh2

for ONE MOVIE!!!!

memang x lah weyh

banyak lagi nak fikir

unless

memang kalau xde kerja

and bnyk masa tu lain cerita

tapi masalahnya

ada ke?

ahaks

tadi tgk istanbul aku datang

buffering x lama pun laa

it was ok for the whole story

so

dah habis movie satu jam lebih nie

bajet x ingat ada paper hari rabu nie 

so 

catch you later

^ _ 8

Happy Birthday !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

6 Jan 1993

one cute little baby was born

his name is Haziq Aiman

* i wish i can have a picture of yours when you're a baby , hehe

well

dear haziq

ingat x bila kita mula2 kenal?

macam creepy kan masa tuh?

haha

kita sama kelas masa darjah 1

i still remember i was sitting in front of you 

and you were sitting beside ira fatin izzati 

at that moment kita fight nak dapat markah lagi tinggi

but yet , u yang dapat masuk kelas first

sobs sobs

haha

i think our best moment masa darjah 3

when you become the ketua pengawas petang

*thats not the point , LOL

and kita sama2 fight nak dapat no 1 dalam kelas

bila i no 1 , you dapat no 2

vise versa 

* tp i yang selalu menang , haha

akhir tahun , both of us dapat no 1

nampak x permainannya di situ , ahaks :P

and 

you dulu pernah wakil sekolah peringkat tilawah

i think thats the first sekolah kita buat tilawah time perhimpunan

still remember kot how you put ur effort on that

and darjah 4 you pindah sekolah

tapi nasib sek agama kita still sama

haha

and it goes on until standard 6

lepas tu kita lost contact

and macam x sangka i met you back masa 

lepas SPM

creepy moment is when i saw your facebook

and i add u

hahahahahaha 

*xtau kenapa , tapi rasa kelakar :P

we start to contact each other after that 

hehe

there's a lot of things that I've shared with you

 how I wish that I can always be by your side

thanks for always supporting me

for always believing in me

for loving me

even though we are far far far away from each other

what ever people are saying about you or me

believe in me

we are stronger together

and i hope that our friendship remains till jannah :)

Happy birthday my dear

hope you have a happy life

live under HIS bless always

your life is full of barakah

sihat selalu

senyum selalu

get the best result for foundation

be the best syariah lawyer ever 

success in your life in whatever undertakings that you are in

I am always supporting alright :)

and I want you to know that

I am so glad to know you

and I am so happy that you are my best friend :D

May Allah bless you always :)

(: Haziq Aiman :)

kertas final pertama

salam

hari nie bermulanya exam final aku sbg

pelajar ijazah

di kampus shah alam

 papar start pagi

so kena turun awal

nak tunggu bas

paper start pukul 9 pagi

tapi mestilah kena sampai awal kan

buat kat DATC kot

ramai sgt exam kat situ

so mestilah ada urusan nak susun

duduk kat mana apa semua

kalau lambat

xde laa tempat duduk kau

ada , tapi .... 

malu laa kau cari time semua orang dah duduk

gambar yg di ambil pagi tadi
jam 7.40 pagi *lebih kurang laa
semua sedang menunggu bas


so
pagi tadi aku ada paper CSC 413
ok boleh tahan laa soalan objektif dia
subjektif pun ok la
tapi so far
alhamdulillah
aku boleh buat

tapi bila dah habis exam tuh
aku rasa macam

" aku kena belajar kuat lagi utk paper2 yg lain "

i really wish i can score dean this semester
dan semester2 yang lain juga
inshaa Allah
aku doakan yang lain pun berusaha ke arah yang sama
dan Allah permudahkan urusan kita semua

paper pagi tadi
ramai yang keluar awal
so nampaklaa senangnya paper tuh
" senang " lah kan
hopefully

so , lepas nie aku ada paper business math pulak
doakan aku ya

love you all
xoxo

wassalam :)