own perceptions

for quite a long time 

blog has become my priority after few months ago

perhaps for the past 6 months or more or whatever 

lols , this is not a big issue though

as I grew and started to think seriously

I do think that my perceptions changed a lot

not that I didnt think before
but it grew a 'little' bit now

if you know who I am in real life

I am good at hiding of how serious my mind can go

because people always see kpopers that way perhaps?

idk

I just dont care about those perceptions

what I want to focus in this entry on what I saw about myself

me in the past and my current self

is a bit different in a sense that the way I see things are different

I really want to achieve what I want and try to accept things easier

if I do think that it is good to me

well , you can accept and reject things

because its you who are deciding what you want aite?

I always appreciate all advises that everyone gave me

it still depends on me whether to accept or not

currently , I have been exposed to a lot of situations
which makes me to think further
and from all advises that I learnt that I am still lack in a lot of things

for the past few weeks

I was busy training my juniors for debate competitions

thing is , I learnt a lot from them too

on how to critically think ; back as how I was before

I am improving by time

which is what I hope I can do well

since I am still learning

learning can be in a lot of ways

it could be from anybody

even from a baby

or an old man

anyone peeps

" never think that we are good enough "

thats what I thought now

because for me

NOBODY IS HIGHER OR LOWER IN EVERYTHING

thats what I always say to my juniors too

realizing that I started to realize that for quite a while

it thought me that I shouldnt be afraid to ask

or to show myself

since everyone is still learning

thats what I thought

idk you

but for sure that you have your own style to think about sth

tbh

idk how to express on how I see things differently

it is sth that you feel inside yourself

everyone has different approaches

and I hope 

that you find yours too

sometimes
I do take lyrics seriously too
since I know thats how I can be totally immersed in
I am trying to accept most things in more positive ways
trying to use what I have to be better
because for me
if I didnt help myself
I will just stay as how I am
I can never push people to accept on how I do most things
and why I am using music or whatever that I use to 
see things differently
well
it still up to you to decide on what you want

so I am leaving this entry from one of the song that 
gave me quite a deep touch in my heart
it might be a bit " hard " to some
but I really love this song
it thought me a lot

this is performed by B.A.P

and this is the Japanese version of it

the meaning is still the same as how the original version is

but the lyrics are changed a bit

but still the feeling the same for both versions ( for me )

I have shared the same thought about this song at AFF

well , some can adapt 

some is not

well as I said

it depends on the individual

nobody can force you to accept anything

I really appreciate that my bias group always thought me these thoughts too

thats lovely though

thank you so much for teaching me this B.A.P

I hope you can like this song and immersed with what

B.A.P is trying to say

the explanations about the song are everywhere

but it still on how you see it passed through your heart 
hehe

here I attach the Korean version of One Shot with eng sub

I am always happy to share anything about them ^^

and this is the original MV from TS Original Youtube channel

psst : 

other songs in this MV are 

1) PUNCH - played at the beginning of the MV

2) COMA - in the middle and the end of MV

thank you for reading :) 

thank you for everything

- sincerely , me -