too attached

I have to admit that

I am too attached with them

(but I am not sasaeng tho -_-)

sometimes I wonder if others will take me as a 'weird' person

( which I always think that they are )

and I always say that ' I DONT CARE ' 

when I always act that 'I care about whatever that you say' XP

but

perhaps because I am way too immerse into music

and they are part of how I see where motivation comes 

( part of the factors )

since then , I started to reveal that I am a KPOPers

since I am too attached to them

and I am happy that most of my friends know it

and don't really say anything negative about it (tehee)

I am ( which I believe other BABYs do the same ) to the level

that we can even recognize a picture just by seeing at their styles

( because you are updating everything about them EVERYDAY :3 )

or whether it is from haters or not

etc etc

( not gonna elaborate that , it can be a sensitive issue to some )

loving them make me be in different level

somehow I can feel that

but idk how to describe or explain that to you

I can take so much efforts

to edit videos , make a lot of accounts

talk about them

share things that I have with BABYs

( my fandom )

and etc etc

even so

some recognized that

and ask me to be an admin for a fanbase ( based in my country )

showing how I can do to that much

though it is not much

I never meet them

I never go to their concert yet

( OMG , Please come here again T_T )

and I also know that they might / might not know me

but I am just ...

I will be at their back

no matter what

thank you

B.A.P

B.A.P - FIRST SENSIBILITY  ( 1004 COMEBACK ) - March 2014
from left  :  Kim Himchan , Choi Junhong (ZELO) , Bang Yongguk , Jung Daehyun , Moon Jongup , Yoo Youngjae

what you meant to me

hye

hello fellas

now is 7.09pm

8.09 KST 

I am here counting on Bang Yongguk's birthday

this is as well as my lovely sisters birthday

actually, I have been holding this feeling quite a while

for a week if i counted

its not that long ago but I know

this is a scar that will not heal in a month even

there is one time 

my housemate and I are watching one of B.A.P shows

we get all excited and laughing all around

talking about how cute they are

talking about how lovely their voice are

but our fangirling mode are up to some scene which 

I bet , other fans will feel the same

he is not my bias but I still feel that way
that we are happily tweeted it in our accounts
but .... someone misunderstood what we said
and say bad things behind us
thing is , I ask that person to watch the show so that she knows what we felt
but then I saw her tweeted that 
" idk what it is and i dont even bother watching it "

well be it

perhaps only matured people like both of us

who only can notice that

idk

what makes me feel this way is

I am so mad 

coz when I am talking around

some people are bashing me at the back

and worst is 

what she said was a spark for my friend too

I am so mad and sad at the same time

how could you say that to us? T_T

1) she doesnt want to watch it
2) she misunderstood us
3 ) she spread bad things about us

well bashing is something that we are used to face

but calling us a fan that is not supportive

really hurt our feeling

seriously 

it hurts a lot

I know 

some will say

" why you have to bother about these matter , its just a young girl who said that "

yes

but we both are so close to her

I can feel how my friend feel so hurt to what that person ( refer as A ) said

to the extend of leaving the fandom

you know

we both have been to kpop world for 5-6 years

yes , it might not be that long to some ( well idk )

but this is our first time being active so much

for a group

despite for my friend ( refer as Z ) who was a Primadonna before

but for me , I never stick to any fandom uptil now

and when this happen 

I am so mad that I am not even fangirling much anymore

there was once that I thought of leaving the fandom

but when I saw A tweeted that she doesnt care

then I think

if I back off , I will get nothing

so I decided to stay

but tbh

for the last whole week

I am trying to spazz around about B.A.P

but .. but 

( omg , I am crying )

I can just scroll down the timeline

and look at people spazzing

I FEEL NOTHING

NO EXCITEMENT AT ALL

I MISS THE MOMENT WHEN I AM FANGIRLING SO HARD

SERIOUSLY , THIS HURT ME SO MUCH !!!

yes

I am in 3 fandoms

but previously when others ask which fandom I am in

I will proudly say that I am a Babys

but now?

I can only say 

" oh hye , I am a cassie and JYJ fan , but I am a Babys too "

nam saying?


( its not that I am not a proud cassie before , its just that : I am a new cassie and a long time Babys ~ 
so hope you understand me and not making speculation about this matter ) 

why I am saying that I am so mad when A say to me and Z about not being supportive?

look

I know I am not doing much

not to Z either

but we both are trying so hard to support ot6

you never know how much we work hard 

to collect the money for FIRST SENSIBILITY album !!!

go on crazily voting

making a lot of accounts

crying for their first , second , third win

excitedly screaming for all the MV releases

even to Japanese PV

and to all merchandises

we even gather most things pertaining to B.A.P

( we have like , most merchandises? esp to things that we are afford on )

and excitedly discuss about saving money for LOE

though we know that we are not that capable
etc etc etc

Z and me are students

and our parents are not that type who will give us money to whatever that we want

means : we have to work on it ourselves

and you never know how the feeling is

when all the excitement go and LOST JUST LIKE THAT !!!

and when someone said that we are not a supportive fan?

I DO CURSE A LOT

TO THIS MATTER

I DO CURSE 

and I KNOW I AM NOT SOMEONE WHO WILL CURSE FOR NOTHING

means : what she said was really something that hurt us badly 

I still remember that I am making the second twitter account to spazz around

been suspended twice during 1004 era

tweet like a crazy girl , all in caps during the show

been crying for the slow wifi since I am waiting to watch the streaming

I WATCH ALL STREAM STAGE FOR GOD SAKE !!!

I AM NOT THAT CRAZY FAN GIRL

I KNOW MY LIMIT

I KNOW WHO B.A.P IS !

I HAVE BEEN TOO LONG IN THIS FANDOM 

OR PERHAPS NOT ( IF COMPARED TO SOME , IDK AND IDC )

BUT WE KNOW 

being in this fandom was something that I will not regret on

since B.A.P is a perfect idol

Babys are the best fandom

but now?

WHAT SHOULD I DO WHEN THE FEELING IS NOT THERE ANYMORE?
mine is not 100% lost , but my friend?
I have been spazzing around with her
this sadden me a lot 

I know Babys are all good

that I admit , we are the best fandom

and both ( B.A.P and Babys ) are not someone that we should blame on

but for some reasons and some people

we lost our interest 70 - 90 %

down to the earth

in a blink

I AM TRYING HARD NOW

SERIOUSLY  t___________t

listening to all B.A.P 's songs back

thinking how I was before about being in this fandom

but I can't lie that ....

1) i need more time? or

2) i need to curse on everyone? or

3 ) or like what I am doing now? crying?

this hurt me so much

it really is 


( honestly I am crying so hard while writing this and listening to 1004 T_T )

you should see how excited I am about this 1004 comeback
ever since the picture teaser
up to the yongguk's gf issue
up to CSI interview
up to tweeting with them
up to the MV release
watching to 3M in few days
spreading all attentions to the whole fandoms about voting

I collect all videos , pictures

everything

even sub the CSI video for Babys to get it permanent

I do it volunteerly 

but , idk where all those spirit go

OMG , what should I do???

another thing

my twitter describe me

can see it here 

that all are now related to Jaejoong
yes I love him too
I love those groups that I am spazzing on
just ... this matter
omg , did you get ma point?

I do talk and spazz about B.A.P

but it will only be within minute

and then I am talking about other fandom

well I am surely do think that I need some time

...and about Z and me...

I know Z

I understand how she felt

and if she wants to leave the fandom

I know that she is right

and I know for me to stay is right

but I can't lie that 

B.A.P is just a memory that I will remember 

deep in my heart
until I get my feeling back

I am listening to B.A.P

and crying out hard

everyday

I know even if Z and me told the whole world about this

nobody will understand us

so lets just wait

what will happen

thanks a lot to all those people who always around to support us

I hope you support will not stop though Z ( or me even , idk ) leave the fandom or what not

and what hurt me most is...

i have been counting for my bias birthday for months

but this happened slightly when it is close enough

I wonder , how can I react

but one thing that I am sure of is

I AM A CASSIOPEIA + JYJ FAN + BABYS
it still stick that way

thanks for all these while

B.A.P is a great group

I will still be in this fandom no matter what

just ... the feeling of excitement 

lets just wait for it to come back

to conclude this

do listen to B.A.P 1004

the lyrics describe me a lot right now

thanks for reading

here , a present :)

me : innocent girl 
8.30 pm
140330

~ I am out ~

#BAP2NDWIN ( MUSIC CORE ) AND #BAP3RDWIN (INKIGAYO)

Hi 

I have been a bit lazy to update

so if there is any readers that follow any updates

about B.A.P here

I am so sorry

well

I will just combine the news that happened 

yesterday ( 140216 ) and on 140214

#BAP2NDWIN

#MUSIC CORE
#140214

#BAP3RDWIN
#INKIGAYO
#140216

Honestly
I have been spazzing a lot during the show
So I don't why 
but I am not going to write much here
kkk

I am going to say
as an international fan
we have tried our best to help
and I am one of those fan
who would crazily tweet , put the hashtag ,
vote for them even I dont understand Hangul,
send messages
write about them
etc

( even the SNS points end up to 1000/1000 )
 I am still surprised but happy for that !!!

but I am sure
it all worth the effort since seeing them winning make us all happy
tehee

thanks to all BABYs
for translating , for keep on updating about them
for spazzing about them with me
because we all get united for these boys
I am so happy to be in this fandom
lets try harder in the future



CONGRATS B.A.P !!!
Best. Absolute. Perfect

#BAP1004 #BAP1STWIN #BAP2NDWIN #BAP3RDWIN

#BAPWORLDROOKIE #FIRSTSENSIBILITY

B.A.P @ After School Club Ep45 Live on FEB 19 - 5PM (KST)

B.A.P will appear at AFTER SCHOOL CLUB 
on 19 Feb 2014
at 5 PM ( KST )

* If you are watching from Malaysia , it will be at 4pm :)

# There a lot of surprises coming for this comeback
I hope they managed to survive it
and get good rest as well
^^

It has been a long time for them to re-appear at 
ASC ( After School Club )

so for any updates
this is ASC's twitter account : https://twitter.com/arirang_ASC

MY FIRST SENSIBILITY ALBUM HAS ARRIVED !!!

So yeorobun

I just got my FIRST SENSIBILITY ALBUM

hoyeah !!!!!!!!!

It just arrived

and I straightly took a picture of it

( this is overexcited but nay , i dont care )

haha

so here !!!

ehm

so that is my album

can you see the white paper that I hold in the picture?

so that basically is the resit that I got when I purchased this album

this is actually my first time buying with this online shop

and it is pretty cool since everything is organized 

and been explained clearly

all the things that you bought from them are coming straight from Korea

and so far , I never found any kpop online who put the resit together

but this online shop is an exceptional

anyone who interested to buy from them

do visit their page 

here : Magic-Castle-Kpop-Shop

basically this Kpop shop have their own Q&A note

that they will notify all users to understand them first

before asking any questions

best part from this Kpop Shop is ... ( this is taken from their Q&A note )

***All our album is reflected to Hanteo Chart, our album all buy from LEESMUSIC, we will give out 1 album 1 receipt*** (Except for some old album not available at Leesmusic, we will try to buy from other way)

and you need to have an ID to buy from them

give it try 

to buy from them

I am sure you are going to like it

^_^

( since I am a type of buyer who doesn't question much , 

so usually I will just wait for the item to arrive ~

 well , logically 

if you buy things online ,

 you must at least have some trust them with your information isn't it? 

So don't be a customer who always question things if it is not needed ^^ )

these are the items that you will get when you buy 
B.A.P FIRST SENSIBILITY ALBUM

1. CD
2. 52p Photo Booklet
3. Photo Card 7types Random (1pc)
4. POSTER : (Valid till Stock Last )
5. 
   

* usually if you make a pre-order , the poster will be provided

why?

because you pre-order it?

hee

the 3rd item is Photocard isn't it?

for this album , they only give you a photocard

which means

you will get a random photocard of B.A.P's picture

and mine is BANG YONGGUK !!!

hee

* I got the leader's picture , kyaa ~

so yeah

I got my birthday present already 

( though I bought it myself )

hahaha

see ya ^^

#BAP1004 #BAP1STWIN #BAP2NDWIN #BAPWORLDROOKIE

140212 #BAP1004 #BAP1STWIN #BAPWORLDROOKIES #BAP2NDWIN

TODAY IS THE BEST DAY AMONG ALL DAYS

SINCE THE DAY OF WHEN B.A.P DEBUT !

I STILL CAN'T BRAIN THE MOMENT WHEN I SAW THEM 

HOLDING THAT TROPHY

OMG , WE HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR LONG !

SERIOUSLY , I AM NOT KIDDING

CONGRATULATIONS B.A.P
CONGRATULATIONS BABYs

WE ALL KNOWS HOW HARD B.A.P HAS BEEN WORKING

FOR THESE 2 YEARS

WE ( BABYs ) NEVER MISS ANY STEPS BEHIND THEM

WHICH MEANS 

THEIR PERFORMANCE AND ACTIONS ARE

THE THING THAT WE ALERT OF

IT HAS BEEN QUITE A JOURNEY

AND TODAY WE ARE SO HAPPY THAT AT LAST

B.A.P CAN GRAB THE WIN IN THEIR HAND

YOU SHOULD SEE THEIR TEARS AND BABYs'

I STILL CAN'T FORGET

UNTIL NOW

I AM SO HAPPY

FOR GOD SAKE

I WAS CRYING

STREAMING THE LINE

TRANSLATING ALL VIDEOS

TRYING HARD TO UNDERSTAND KOREAN LANGUAGE

TRYING TO GET INTO THE KOREAN PAGE TO VOTE

SPREADING THE WORDS TO INCREASE THE VIEWS

ETC

BEING AN INTERNATIONAL FAN

SOMEHOW THERE ARE SOME CIRCUMSTANCES 

THAT MAKE US A BIT DIFFERENT FROM KOREAN FANS

BUT I AM SURE

THAT IS A CHALLENGE THAT WE ALL LOVE TO DO

BECAUSE WE LOVE OUR IDOL SO MUCH

YOU DESERVE IT B.A.P !!!

THIS IS THE PICTURE AT SHOW CHAMPION TODAY

THEY WON THEIR FIRST AWARD

THE FIRST HASHTAG TRENDING TODAY

SHOW CHAMPION HAPPENED TO BE AT 6PMKST

 THE HASHTAG AT THAT MOMENT WERE

#BAP1004 #BAP1STWIN

AND THIS HASHTAG  RANKED FIRST WORLDWIDE

KYAA ~ 

AND RIGHT AFTER THE SHOW CHAMPION

THEY RUSHED TO GAON AWARDS

THIS HAPPENED AT 7PMKST

THEY WON THE WORLD ROOKIE AWARD

THEN THE HASHTAG OF

 #BAP1004 #BAP1STWIN #BAPWORLDROOKIES #BAP2NDWIN 

WERE TRENDING AT TWITTER

SCREEN CAPTURE DURING THE SHOW CHAMP

THE TIMELINE IS FULL WITH THE UPDATES

EVERYBODY WAS SOOOO HAPPY

KYAAAA ~ I STILL CANT STOP TALKING ABOUT IT

WE KNOW THAT THEIR HARD WORKS ARE PAID WITH THIS

SAME TO ALL BABYS

(c) : TVREPORT

DAEHYUN AND YOUNGJAE

TWEETED SOMETHING RIGHT AFTER THE SHOW CHAMPION

AND HIMCHAN TWEETED AT NIGHT

OMG I DON'T KNOW WHAT SHOULD I WRITE ANYMORE

AND I AM SO SORRY THAT EVERYTHING IS IN CAPS LOCK

(c) : OSEN

ACTUALLY I HAVE BEEN STARING AT THE SCREEN 

FOR HOURS

AND I THINK I AM SO TIRED BUT YET HAPPY

THAT I COULD NOT EVEN BRAIN 

ON WHAT SHOULD I DO NEXT

I REALLY HOPE THAT B.A.P CAN GET ENOUGH REST

SOME OF THEM ARE NOT IN A GOOD HEALTH

WE KNOW THAT THEY SLEPT ONLY FOR FEW HOURS

B.A.P 

PLEASE REST !!!

GET WELL SOON <3

I AM GOING TO LOVE THIS FANDOM

AND THESE BOYS

SO HAPPY FOR THEM

TILL NEXT ENTRY EARTHLINGS !

(c) : TV REPORT

* please keep on smiling like this B.A.P :)

We will always supporting you <3

#BAP1004 #BAP1STWIN #BAPWORLDROOKIES #BAP2NDWIN 

140209 B.A.P - Spy + 1004 [ Angel ] < Stage Comeback > First Sensibility

Hello
this is the next Comeback Stage
by B.A.P today
at Inkigayo

Today's song are SPY 
( 4th track from FIRST SENSIBILITY album )

and 1004 [ Angel ]
( 2nd track from the album - also the title song )



what happened to me was
I want to watch this live
( stream line since I dont have any channel to Korean Channel at my house )
since this song was done at the early part of the show
and the line seems so 'nice' to me
I can't get through the stream line

well its okay
because after few minutes or hours
someone uploaded it I download it straight away

at the moment when I want to update my entry
I tried to search back the video
but it says as
" this video is not available at your country "
I was like " okayyyy , luckily I have downloaded this before "

but I managed to find this video ( posted above )
so yeah
If there is anyone who want to look at it
hope you still can watch it in the future :)




Okay 
Today's performance was deabak!!!
seriously
the fanchant is really loud !!!
Babys , you sure have done a lot
YOU DID A GOOD JOB !!!!!

The style is really different
( I am sure Babys are going to love the stylist for today's performance XP )

and everything was perfect (Y)

Hope I can go to B.A.P's concert after this
B.A.P please come to Malaysiaaaaa !!!
#BAP1004

btw
this is the full song of B.A.P - SPY
with its translation :)

and for those who want to make it as a ringtone
This can be a good start to hear it
Up to you whether you want to use it or not :)
this is linked with it's download link :)

I really need to memorize that fan chant
haha

Anyway
I am so glad that B.A.P is making their comeback
and I managed to follow their paces
since I am still in my holiday
so I still can follow any updates

I can see that we both
( B.A.P and Babys )
are working really hard for this comeback

B.A.P with the whole thing
and Babys is working together to make this album up
together with the voting and encouraging each other
to support B.A.P


Let's be strong together neh ? :)

#BAP1004
#FirstSensibility
#2YearsWithBAP

The chocolate that Daehyun made :)))
[ I think , he wants to eat this alone XP ]




until next entry  <3

140208 B.A.P Comeback Stage ( Music Core ) Bang Bang + 1004 [ Angel ]

Hello everyone
So this is the video for 
B.A.P's schedule today
Which is done at MBC Music Core

The song is Bang Bang 
(the 8th track from the album)

and 1004 [ Angel ]
( title song - 2nd track from the album )

I really love this song
and hoping that they can sing SNS too
but we understand the circumstances
about the song so...
but still i love that SNS song too
( I love all songs actually XP )

so just in addition
this is the full song of Bang Bang

enjoy ^^

Hello " Actor Kim " <3

140207 B.A.P 1004 COMEBACK STAGE + WITH YOU

Hello there

here I am 
posting about B.A.P
on my birthday
lol
so cool huh?

so yeah this is the comeback video
I am so thankful that they upload it here

it is awesome
the fanchant is just daebak
thanks for this birthday present B.A.P

#B.A.P1004

* and I am also happy that the views for 1004 MV is now
more than 1mil
congrats Babys
congrats B.A.P

B.A.P even
ranked as 1 in most charts
I can see that Babys are really working hard 
to work these on

lets keep on working together neh?

^_^