TRIANGLE ~ between love and hate

So there are people updating how great their Eid is

and here I am updating how 

I have a date with my Korean Drama XP

I have downloaded this drama long when it was released (2014)

too much affections for this drama

this is the first drama that Kim Jaejoong is the lead of all dramas he was in

I watched it half way 

and decided to keep it at paused due to my studies

as at a certain concern 

this drama needs more focus to understand it

adding up with the casino knowledge it in

well , its a new view to learn about

I would love to give all stars to this drama

not because it is bias

but because of the plot

just that , it concerns you with 26 episodes

thus , it might take some stars from your ranking
depending on the love level for the plot

however

even if I said that I like the plot so much

there are certain improvements that they might want to take into concern

of how slow they make the story be

though I understand that this drama involved so many thriller scenes

they don't have to focus much on the emotion much
although ... well , I have no right to talk much about this

however , the drama is still deserved a thumbs up

anyway

these are the OST of the drama that I can attached

Happy Eid and have a good day everyone ~

FULL OST LIST --> TRIANGLE OST




KIM JAEJOONG - THOUGH I HATE IT

KIM JAEJOONG - COINCIDENCE

THE HIDDEN - ONLY YOU

too attached

I have to admit that

I am too attached with them

(but I am not sasaeng tho -_-)

sometimes I wonder if others will take me as a 'weird' person

( which I always think that they are )

and I always say that ' I DONT CARE ' 

when I always act that 'I care about whatever that you say' XP

but

perhaps because I am way too immerse into music

and they are part of how I see where motivation comes 

( part of the factors )

since then , I started to reveal that I am a KPOPers

since I am too attached to them

and I am happy that most of my friends know it

and don't really say anything negative about it (tehee)

I am ( which I believe other BABYs do the same ) to the level

that we can even recognize a picture just by seeing at their styles

( because you are updating everything about them EVERYDAY :3 )

or whether it is from haters or not

etc etc

( not gonna elaborate that , it can be a sensitive issue to some )

loving them make me be in different level

somehow I can feel that

but idk how to describe or explain that to you

I can take so much efforts

to edit videos , make a lot of accounts

talk about them

share things that I have with BABYs

( my fandom )

and etc etc

even so

some recognized that

and ask me to be an admin for a fanbase ( based in my country )

showing how I can do to that much

though it is not much

I never meet them

I never go to their concert yet

( OMG , Please come here again T_T )

and I also know that they might / might not know me

but I am just ...

I will be at their back

no matter what

thank you

B.A.P

B.A.P - FIRST SENSIBILITY  ( 1004 COMEBACK ) - March 2014
from left  :  Kim Himchan , Choi Junhong (ZELO) , Bang Yongguk , Jung Daehyun , Moon Jongup , Yoo Youngjae

been looking for the right skin care ?

okay

this is a rare post 

I am now a lot more interested with most skin care products

1) I bought a wrong product which doesnt suit my skin

2) it is costly

3) so I need to learn so I wont buy any wrong product that doesnt suit my skins

to be honest

I read a lot

when I have free time during this holiday

despite being busy with my assignments

and COC , lols

( COC is name of a game - if in case you are curious what it is )

so yeah

I have been looking for products that suits my skin best

and not really costly since

I am still a student

btw 

I was just wondering around youtube

and I found this channel

and omg , I love her videos so much

you can check her channel out

until next time

me , blabbering about other things

bye

mumble XP

So

tbh

I am writing at 5.09 AM

which is bad because its not that I just wake up

but I havent sleep lols whatever 

ignore it

good that tomorrow is Saturday

eh wait , it is today :P 

thus

I am downloading an anime named PSYCHO - PASS

havent watch it yet but I got review saying that it is okay

so I am going to watch it soon

idk why but lately

I am a into all Japanese dramas , manga , anime

love it when I heard them conversing and I can revise what I learnt 

though its not all

and while waiting for that 

I re-customize my tumblr

which I have left for long

( sorry bb tumblr )

but yeah , I am back

and lols , idk when will I be active back

 

and yeah

I am quite busy with a lot of stuffs

supposedly

but still looking for books etc to be real busy

since I really wanna start everything earlier this semester

( aiming for Deans , so yeah )

and other thing

I have slept earlier

and I drank coffee

I have headache because of that

and I dont really care about it

coz i wanna drink it

but I am mad to myself coz i drink it

haha , its complicated

who cares anyway

and I have lot of thoughts to write here

it might be changing to more " accepted " stuffs 

written in this blog

pertaining to my course

which idk if I can make it that way

coz usually I just wrote what I THOUGHT TO WRITE

( which might make some annoyed but idk and idc coz idek any evidences )

but yeah

that is why I might need some feedbacks

if my entry is not sth that you like though

until next next next entry :)

what do I have and what I dont?

hello

so , result was out

and mine was terrible

and tbh , i dont remember that result will be announce today

what happened?

i was so busy with my work and training my juniors

we are going to have a debate competition that will be held this weekend

up to next week which depends on the performance of the kids

so when I went straight home

i was so tired , so I slept early

I manage to remember when I saw my friend congratulating me

which makes me 

" what did I do that make you say that "

thats what I thought

then only I remember that result was announced !

thing is

my result was bad

and idk why and what I have done to get that sort of result

what I felt rn might not be how I felt

since I am not having heart pumping fast since

I am not remember the result was announce though

so yeah

when I looked at my result

I was like

" ouh , its out "

ahhhh , should I feel bad?

should I cry?

should I feel miserable?

idk

thing is , I am ... idk , heartless?

I know I am not doing much

but hearing that my housemate gets dean

i was "ouh" - ing again

thats cool syaf , clap to yourself and cry

that might be better to think of though

even I know I wont do that

honestly

for this semester break

i dont really get to just sit and enjoy my holiday

i was busy with works

training and on road in my car

and i feel bad sometimes that I didnt help my mother much

but idk , I know I am not good

thats why

idk

things happened and I know

promising myself to be better can just be another word

that can be said every semester

everytime

just , to comfort yourself

and if that is the best that I can do

why not aite?

yeah

I do think that training my juniors makes me think sth that I couldnt manage to see

which is to just do our best , and let Allah do the rest

my passions , my dreams

might not be 100% at my studies

which I should feel bad

but at the same time

since there are a lot of things to be focus on

and I am still learning

I should always tell myself that

doing what I think is good to myself wont do any harm

and envy-ing others for getting better and I do nothing wont bring me any good either

so yeah

syaf , go and live your life

feel happy and strive harder.

I hope I can manage to handle myself better in the future

>.<

well educated ... well mannered?

satu benda aku suka tulis kat sini

xada siapa nak restrain any ideas yg kau nak muntahkan

sekadarnya kerana tak semua manusia suka mendengar

mereka suka membaca

makanya manusia macam aku suka melantak idea disini

biar hati pena mendengar

haha

now i was thinking what am I thinking right now

ayat kemain :P

sekarang aku menulis dalam gelap

malas menghidupkan lampu

ahh mataku pasti marah

kerana memaksa sinaran dicucuk ke dia

satu benda aku rasa

aku dengar tadi ada manusia bercerita

tentang manusia yang lain

topik mudah

aku mudahkan

kedudukan kejayaan akademik

well educated ... well mannered?

haha

sebenarnya

aku pun terfikir

apa guna kalau pandai , bijak , pintar

tapi akhlak tiada?

aku pun tak sempurna

tapi kebanyakannya riak menunjukkan kepintaran mereka

dan memandang rendah kepada orang lain

sebagai manusia

aku juga terkadang alpa

mengikut nafsu melayan habuan kejayaan yang diterima

tapi aku tahu 

kadang tersedar

manusia itu semua sama

kau belajar tahap mana pun

akhlak itu yang manusia puja

itu yang mereka perkatakan sampai kau tiada di dunia

kiranya

akademik itu penting

tapi aku tak rasa ia perlu buatkan diri kau riak ke langit

menjunjung sekeping kertas ke dasar angkasa

aku, kau, kita semua

 juga perlu sedar

yang IQ dan EQ itu perlu setara

makanya manusia sekalian

hormatilah orang lain

jgn kerana segulung ijazah yang kau ada

kau nak bangga satu kampung kata kau anak bangsawan ternama

ramai lagi manusia yang lebih bagus

berpada-pada lah

terkadang aku nak tergelak melihat

 ada manusia 

kunun bicara macam tahu semua

tapi satu apa pun xada

semoga kita menjadi lebih baik

dan tak tergolong dalam golongan sebegini

kerana kita semua manusia

tarafnya sama

Tuhan sahaja yang memberi darjat

kita hanya hambaNYA 

peace

take care

^_^

( Lee Hi - Rose ) with English translation

hello all

I want to promote this one sone

sang by Lee Hi

titled Rose

for me

this song bring deep meaning

idk about the rest

but for me it is

hehehe

so here's the English translation of the song

enjoy

^_^

My love is like a red rose
It may be beautiful now
But my sharp thorns will hurt you
My love is like a red rose
Yes, I may be fragrant
But the closer you get, the more I’ll hurt you

Don’t look at me with that light glance
Don’t speak of love easily
If you want my heart, you need to take my pain too
Because you will be pricked by my thorns someday

Don’t trust me too much
You don’t know me that well yet
So just run away run away
I said ooh ooh ooh
Don’t love me
You don’t know me that well yet
I said run away just run away
Don’t come to me

My love is like a red rose
It may be beautiful now
But my sharp thorns will hurt you
My love is like a red rose
Yes, I may be fragrant
But the closer you get, the more I’ll hurt you

Seeing your confidence makes me feel so bad for you
Your confident footsteps toward me looks so pitiful today
Emotions? That’s an extravagance to me
Love? That’s Obsession’s best friend
So run away just run away
Cuz you and I must come to an end

Every rose has its thorn
Every rose has its thorn
Every rose has its thorn

Don’t trust me too much
You don’t know me that well yet
So just run away run away
I said ooh ooh ooh
Don’t love me
You don’t know me that well yet
I said run away just run away
Don’t come to me

My love is like a red rose
It may be beautiful now
But my sharp thorns will hurt you
My love is like a red rose
Yes, I may be fragrant
But the closer you get, the more I’ll hurt you

get little things with your time

I've finished reading a book

written by Mitch Albom

titled " THE TIME KEEPER "

It was awesome I'm gonna say

the layout of the story was based on three main character

named Dor , Victor and Sarah

you can simply follow the story even if 

it was based on three different characters

however

this book mainly talk on how we should appreciate our time

because in this book

it talked on how Sarah who asked for lesser time that she had in life

different with Victor who asked for more time in his life

Dor bring up such a huge role in this story

narrated that he is the one invented how time works

but yet still looking forward what he's looking for in his life

I would recommend this book for you to read

alright

see ya

hari yang panjang

kalau diikutkan hari entry ini

kiranya kisah ini berlaku semalam

memandangkan semalam hari pekerja

maka semuanya cuti

mostly

ada je yang bekerja

tapi gaji double triple laa en

maka aku decide untuk keluar

ke uia

basically aku keluar sorang2 ( serious forever alone gile :P )

dari shah alam aku keluar ke seksyen 2

ambil bas U80 ( rapid kl )

then jalan terus ke KL SENTRAL

dari situ aku ambil LRT terus ke GOMBAK

dari gombak aku ambil bas rapid yang menghala ke uia

mcm pendek perjalanan

tapi takes me for hours jugaklaa nak sampai

penat tak habis lagi masa menulis nih

haha

aku dah inform kawan aku kat sana

nama dia sakinah

plan nak ajak dia keluar laa

tapi at first sampai sana

aku jumpa haziq dulu

then baru aku keluar dengan sakinah ke klcc

heheh

it was warm and awesome laa

sebab dah lama tak jumpa sakinah

fyi

haziq and sakinah ni dua2 best friends aku

so yeah

feeling dia awesome bila jumpa

walaupun perjalanan jauh

gittew :P

and hari pun aku mcm selamba sgt

jalan sorang2

padahal tak pernah nak try jalan ke sana naik public transport 

dgn guidance sapa2 kot

memang aku nekad nak try sendiri

sebab kalau tak memang tak sampailaa jawabnya kan

maka hari ni apa yang aku dapat :

1) jumpa sakinah and haziq

2) belajar naik LRT ( sebab tak pernah naik sebelum ni -_- )

3 ) pergi suria KLCC ( last time pergi , masa kecik2 - rasanya kot )

4 ) jumpa ramai orang yang macam2 ( serious hari ni ramai sgt manusia kat sana-sini )

5 ) pengalaman ( ahaks :P )

6) beli buku novel 

( ok ni awesome sebab aku suka sgt beli buku , 

perasaan dia awesome bila kau bau dalam buku tu -

 ayat tak boleh blah :P )

aku tak tahu nak cakap macam mana

satu accomplishment bagi diri aku sendiri laa

sebab berjaya sampai juga ke sana

walaupun seorang diri

and aku happy sgt

ada peluang inshaa Allah

ke sana lagi lain kali

dan harap2 depa buat trip datang shah alam pulak

haha

take care yaww ^_^

narrow minded ???

ada orang

bila tak suka dengar sesuatu benda

dia kata

" tak payah amik tahu lah weyh , tak masuk exam pun "

bila kau dengar orang kata benda ni

apa reaksi kau?

kalau aku

jelingan tajam mungkin hadir kat muka ni

atau kalau aku tak tunjuk

dalam hati cukup laa

kalau nak berhujah

haha

tak payahlaa

know what?

dalam dunia sekarang

nak tak nak kau kena amik tahu

at least serba serbi

orang suka amik tahu pasal cam mana nak berjaya ja

atau paling kurang

fikir macam mana nak kaya

or apa2 lah yg kau fikir

dik

ilmu Allah tu luas

jangan sempitkan kepala otak kau

maksud aku

try jugak ambil tahu kisah orang

luangkan masa baca benda2 ilmiah yang selainnya

jangan rasa benda yg kita  belajar informal ni tak penting

aku pun tak laa nak scopekan entry ni hanya pada pembacaan

ruang sosial pun penting jugak

sebab kau hidup kat dunia pun kebanyakannya dengan manusia

jadi belajar laa jugak manusia tu macam mana

effort nak faham orang pun ambil masa

yes

tak mudah nak rajinkan diri

tapi at least

try

aku pun tak serajin mana

cuma pernah seketika

aku perlu utk membaca sesuatu yang mungkin di luar kotak syllabus

kerana aku perlu idea utk berhujah di pentas pertandingan

tapi

tulah masalahnya sekarang

nak rajin tu susah sebab hectic sgt jadual

*kunun

tapi apa yang aku rasa

at least

bila kita baca banyk benda

kita jadi tahu

dan bila orang tipu kita

tak ada laa nampak dungu sgt buta2 percaya

dia kata apa

kan?

ehem

good point gained kat situ laa

mungkin

one thing laa

bukan nak kata apa

bila kita sempitkan pemikiran kita

kita tak ber "gerak" banyak

otak kau berputar kat situ ja

kadang aku terfikir

kau tak bosan ka

fikir benda yang sama ja?

err

nasihat utk aku dan kau jugak

jaga diri

^_^

bad mood?

suka sangat

tajuk bahasa lain

entry bahasa lain

asal kau faham sudah laa kot

--'

hari ni

ada sesuatu yang terjadi

dan ia buat aku sangat tak ada mood nak study

or buat sesuatu yang di senaraikan 

di dalam senarai priority

aku hanya mampu mengeluh

haih

aku tak nak cerita apa yang terjadi

cukuplaa seharian aku berdiam diri hari ni

ehmm

kisahnya aku ada paper mid term esok

petang esok

tapi aku hanya baca sikit jer

( dah baca dah actually - aku rasa laa )

* aku tak tau  - aku belajar cara lain kau belajar cara lain

kot

so yeahhh -_-

tu ayat nak sedapkan hati jer sbnrnya

whatever laa

ok back to story

so bila aku tak rasa yang aku study bnyk

so aku jadi risau

tapi masalahnya nak baca tak dak mood

and tak masuk

sedih weyh

tak suka situasi macam tuh

so tadi aku keluar

seorang

sebab semua nak study

aku xnak kacau

tak jauh pun aku keluar

masih di area shah alam

aku tak tau laa

serabut sikit aku hari ni

haha

tapi tapi tapi

aku dah ok dah sekarang

aku tahu

aku ada ramai orang yang sokong aku

dan sebab itu jugak laa aku mampu nak senyum balik sekarang :)

esp to my besties

sakinah and haziq laa

both do understand me a lot

aku call jer pun tau aku tak ok

haha

I am so glad that I have them in my life :)))

and also those yang aku text

and yang aku call

and yang aku ceritakan masalah aku

(mostly yang aku rasa dekat dan ada percentage nak jumpa laa)

yang sentiasa setia mendengar

dan sewaktu dengannya

aku tak mampu nak senaraikan siapa

ada sesetengah kepunyaan sesetengah pihak

kang kalau ada yang cemburu

aku pulak yang kena satgi -_-

tapi aku happy sebab 

aku tahu ramai yang senantiasa menyokong di belakang aku

cuma aku jer laa

perasan atau tidak

maaf jika aku tak layan sesetengah macam tak sama berat ke apa ke

tapi aku berharap sangat

walau di mana pun anda

walau siapa pun anda

aku berharap semoga Allah sentiasa berkati kalian semua

aku gembira sangat

yang kalian semua senantiasa berdiri menyokong 

dari belakang

atau dari mana2 sisi pun

thanksss a lot

***

those yang close dgn aku

mungkin boleh terus trace kalau aku bad mood

sebab aku jarang buat muka tak happy depan diorang

and kalau kau jenis sekepala

aku akan excited sungguh bila bercakap dengan korang

( tu yang diorang cakap laa LOL )

sebab aku memang bnyk cakap

kot

aku rasa laa

haha

-_-

so bila aku berdiam diri tu

maknanya ada sesuatu lah tu

sesuatu lah sangat kan

haha

p/s :
 masalah aku sbnrnya bukan pasal pelajaran
yang ada kat atas nih tu sampingan 
dan aku tau aku patut ambil berat
-_-

***

ok korang

take care ^^

lepaskan yang mana?

baru habis kelas akaun sebentar tadi 

sekarang menghadap komputer riba

menaip dan berfikir

apa aku nak lepaskan 

selepas ini

ok

lepas ni ada trip ke SCM ( setia city mall )

sebab ada class gathering

and at the same time nak celebrate birthday

one of the classmates

so sekarang ni

aku dalam dilemma

nak gerak ke sana tu rancangnya

dalam pukul 3 petang

itu adalah selepas solat jumaat

makanya aku berfikir

tempat kami nak pergi makan tu 

ala2 buffet 

( or whatever ejaan dia , aku tak tau )

malam ni aku ada kokurikulum

asalnya hari khamis laa

tapi coach decide nak buat hari jumaat

aku ada text CR semalam

tanya ada kelas ke tak minggu nie

dia tak balas

dia pun fakulti lain

aku malas nak call dia

nak tnya coach sendiri

tak kan laa weyh

dah laa dia datang jauh2

dia jadi tak sedap hati bila

kau jarang sedap hati nak ponteng itu ini

makanya

aku tengah kesusahan hati

gitu -_-

bila dah ambil set dinner

tak kan nak makan kejap jer

or else mesti lama kat situ

sebab gathering kan

and yet

kokurikulum tu start after maghrib

and perjalanan dari mall ke kampus 

lebih kurang setengah jam

oppurtunity cost  (apa yg aku kena forgo) tu

aku sendiri tak tau nak pilih yang mana

ya Allah 

please help me >_<

tak sangka

salam kesemuanya

sekarang jam 12.26 pagi

5/4/2013 - Jumaat

alhamdulillah Allah bagi lagi peluang

nak tulis kat sini

dan berfikir

dan segala peluang yang ada

moga kita selalu jadi orang yang bersyukur

tadi aku nak pergi satu program

tapi aku tak ada hati sungguh nak pergi

maka segala perjalanan aku tu

macam lambat jer

last2 aku tak pergi -_-

masa nak balik kolej

aku terserempak dengan kawan aku

waktu ni malam laa

baru jer tadi , LOL

mula2 aku ingat nak duduk sorang

lepas tu dia pun nak makan

maka dia temankan

sambil dia makan nasi

dan aku minum mountain dew *wink wink

kami duduk laa bercerita

sejujurnya macam entry lepas

aku cakap aku macam serabut sikit lately ni

apabila serabut

plan macam mana pun

rasa macam tak ada hati nak buat

aku tak suka perasaan tuh

jadi nak kena cari kekuatan balik

dan aku tau tak mudah

dan tadi aku pun cerita kat kawan aku tuh

dan dia pun rasa benda yang sama aku rasa

semester ni

sungguh aku kata

nak main2 pun tak sempat

kalau tak urus masa tu

memang macam nak menangis laa

sebab banyak sangat kerja

test dan kuiz bertimbun

aduhai , penat nak kejar

banyak laa kitorang cerita

haha , lama jugak laa duduknya

lepas tu datang lagi seorang

kami pun duduk bertiga

berkongsi cerita sampai beberapa ketika

jujur aku kata

problem aku pun macam hilang

apabila kita cerita kat orang

dan diorang pun supportive sangat

thanks ya Allah for sending them to me

kadang2 kita tak sangka

orang yang kita jarang jumpa

itu yang akan ajar kita sesuatu

dia yang akan dengar masalah kita

dia yang doakan utk kita

etc

itu sebabnya

mak aku selalu kata

kawan dengan ramai orang

dan sekarang aku tahu kenapa

haha

dah lama perasan benda ni 

saja nak tulis :P

makanya

hargailah sesiapa pun yang hadir dalam hidup kita

tak kisah siapa

jangan nilai manusia berkaitan yang buruk sahaja

kita pun bukan sempurna

aku ada kerja akaun yang perlu dibuat

dan hujung minggu nie ada program

minggu depan test berderet

lagi dua minggu ada mid term test

doakan kami semua

jaga diri ^^

best scenes from episode 66 season 3 of Cardcaptor Sakura

you know

I still love to watch this anime even if

my age doesn't really suit to watch it though

but I don't really careeee XP

so here it is

scene that I thought as the best from episode 66 of the anime

I hope that you could watch this anime with me

all thanks to CLAMP for making such a great anime

till next entry :)

problem with books

i have a problem

when i have all the excitement of buying books

but i don't have guts to finish it in a day

or maybe a week

unless its a novel

or something that was sort on as a story

but but

i love to buy books pertaining to facts

or business

or something serious

but this sort of books take me years to finish them

or if I start to read a book

and I stop at the middle of it

it's hard to pursue reading it back

do you have the same issue like me?

now

I have to fix this

really

sobs sobs

my first video :)

this is about my final examination :P

1-  CSC413

2-  MAT112

3-  CTU551

4-  ADS410

5-  ACC114

6-  LAW245

please ignore the grammar mistakes

and the noise behind it

hope you enjoy it :)

p/s : i'll appreciate your comment if you have any :)

good luck everyone !!!

a day with kak rufa and ...

hari ni

aku berjalan di IKEA hampir satu hari

dari pagi sampai ke petang

honestly

this is the first time aku ke sana

aku pergi dengan kak rufa

hehe

am gonna say

IKEA use an interesting inter phase to attract their customer

first2 tadi kitorg pergi showroom dia

dekat showroom nie dia lebih tunjukkan konsep

how you want to use their product for your house

aq suka konsep 2 gambar di atas

blue , lepas tu ada lampu2 bagai

i mean , i preferred to have simple bedroom

idk , saja nak berangan kejap kan

haa

teringin nak meja study besar macam nie

sorang2 jer conquer

haha

preferable

take white color for wider view of an environment laa

ruang kecil nampak luas

ecewah 

bajet macam interior designer lah pulak kan

this is for those who have kids

yeah 

this is kinda cool too :3

would love to have these lamps :)

haha 

so dah tgk showroom apa semua

am thinking

like wow 

how can they have such a great idea to have all these concepts?

and then bila dah tgk barang2 and concept2 dekat showroom

dia ada number for each item yang dia pamerkan

and you just have to write on it

later on nanti

bila nak choose dekat bawah tu kira senanglaa

ok dah habis jalan2 semua

kitorg pergi makan

hehe

so since ramai yang suka makan meatball kat ikea

so aku try makan

it was delicious :)

haa 

nie apa yang kitorg semua makan :)

kenyang kot (Y)

ok laa

aku pun x makan banyak pun kan

so 

dah penat apa semua

kitorang makan ice cream

buat sendiri kot

*actually just tekan a button , lepas tu ice cream tu keluar sendiri :P

try to have a visit to ikea if you haven't do that

so yeah

till next entry :)

p/s : all the pictures are credited to the showroom of ikea's