WYAO

<12.33 am>

WYAO stands for

WORK YOUR ASS ON

lols

perhaps its is not suitable for some people , sorry

but yeah , lets proceed

This is a special entry for a 'little' girl

she is a friend of mine that I havent meet

perhaps we can meet one day ^^

so now

this will be general since I am sure she will get it

so I have read your 'homework'

thank you for completing it

I appreciate that

tbh , I have a lot to say

since perhaps I have been there done that

so I will just say things based on what I think I should say

(make sure you read and listen to everything that I put in this entry XP)

1) for me , that song brings a lot of meaning towards me.

that was the song when I was totally into them.

that song brings me to one point that I should be on track.

but that aint the only factor. there are a lot ! freaking a lot

but its all up to you on how you want to use it
same goes to anything that you do
its all on you ^^

2) yeah , I will do the same ~ blaming myself for things that I think I did wrong. 

(sometimes I mad at others if I know I am not wrong , 

but I will end up fixing things rather than let it be , 

unless its totally unnecessary)

BUT , I dont agree you saying that you will feel that way .

people do have different kind of ways to express themselves , 

so it doesnt matter , it depends on you

on how you want to open up to others , 

but girl , nobody is higher or lower

everyone is working their ass off to get what they want

you are blaming yourself , that is one thing , 

saying that you feel stupid wont help you though

logically , sit there doing nothing ... okay , you can call that as stupid ><

SO YOU NEED TO REALLY WORK ON WHAT YOU STATED IN NO 3 !

3) For this , THERE , YOU SAID IT !

*clap clap*

but then , if you do nothing 

nothing will change

NOW (pats on you) , I know

its hard when someone that you trust said something like that to you

but seriously , it might hurt sometimes

but as you said , you need to respect them

so keep that respect on

work harder

prove to them that you can do better

make it as a good motivation

sometimes , some parents cant really express themselves 

saying lovey dovey words etc

and them being protective perhaps seeing that you are still young

I know you wont rebel , but trust me

they are just giving time for themselves

to let of totally get your own freedom soon

now , you are under their sight , protections

nobody will let their daughter hang out alone etc and be on their own

especially at your age

yes , they wont provide you step by step 'procedures'

but then

its up to you on how you want to adapt to it
you are a grown up girl aint you? 

expectations ... I dont think people would love to have it

yes , I hate it too

but without it

you will not accomplish anything (good expectations I meant)

4) being compared ...well , i think its normal

but nah , just....listen and keep on

well , I know it is not easy

but , there is nothing that you can do but to strive !
ITS ABOUT THE WAY YOU ARE <--- lols , am listening this now ><

these are my answers to answers that you gave me based on what I give you ><

REP UP

<THIS>

I know you understand this better than me

I know how music works best on us

now , I guess this might work on you

coz it is on me ><

okay that wasnt the last part though

I have a lot more

lols , you should know how 'noisy' I am

everything is depends on you

its not that I havent face what you are facing now

what I did was , I study hard

mine was when , if I didnt pass that

I need to extend my time from entering degree

now , you still have a semester to go

which will be easier

you still have time

you have done your best for the past three semesters

just , a slight "mistake" is done for the last sem

so , like you said , you blame yourself

so now , will blaming yourself only; bring you something?

no right?

you gotta study from now on
use this holiday to work on that paper , study early

I have seen my friend with 4 papers

now he needs to extend way longer than you

so be grateful

that Allah tests you with a small test

or perhaps big , idk

but one thing about me

I am not saying that I didnt complain on things

I do

but I know I wont do that only

I know I have to strive to get things back
to fix things back
then thats how you can make everyone proud

You know
success is universal

PEOPLE CAN ONLY ADVISE YOU

ITS YOU TO WORK ON IT

=D

I know you can do well

trust yourself more

be confident

try to prove to yourself that you can be better than 

what you are now

dont compare with others much

it helps nothing

I know I didnt help much

but I hope you wont give up that easily

I hate it if someone that I care do things like that

it hurts me

I am striving here

so I hope you will do the same ^^

now this is for you :)

<OMG , I am so gonna cry for having emoshinki rn, lols *hug you>

me

<A little Cassiopeia>

<1.26am>

Contengan

1.45 pagi

banyak sangat perkara nak dirungkai

external aku rosak

aku kena format

jadah semua benda aku kumpul bertahun 

hilang kejap je

nangis tak berlagu aku

lately

aku tak sempat nak kejar benda lain

whatsapp kbnyknnya aku tak reply

call pun housemate sbb nak balik etc

and home ( I miss home so bad )
*praying for my little brother for his SPM , I know he is doing his best*

debate aku kena kejar juga

ada tournament bakal menyusul

aku malas sbnrnya

tapi keadaan dan tenaga kerja itu kurang

assignments bersepah

kebanyakan aku buat sorang

aku tak kisah

tapi dalam hati menyumpah

aku buat dgn kawan lain

dia ada , tapi tak datang

sudahnya hanya menaip

aku menyumpah tak habis

bukan satu assignment je dia buat macam tu

aku rasa nak mencarut kat dia

tapi tak boleh

dia nak membahan , tak tgk lagi aku bahan orang macam mana

aku tak tau nak fikir apa
jadi aku diam
tunggu masa
yang lain pun tahan sahaja perangai dia
markah atas usaha orang
tak rasa bersalah ke?

aku geram semua benda

kuiz aku markah teruk gila

mid term jadual macam apa

aku nangis habis paper sebab serius macam final

tambah satu carutan sbb mmg aku akui

pentadbiran fakulti agak lemah dari segi ini

banyak lagi benda aku tak sempat buat

AGM tak buat lagi

CCM talk tak de lagi

debate tournaments lagi

presentation bersepah macam jadah

study lagi

final nak dekat dah

membahan kenapa kelas akhir sem kena blended sebab

budak dip nak masuk

padahal awal sem tu diorang tu final jugak

kitorang tak de kelas kot awal sem tu

kena ganti kelas sebab diorang

apa jadah suruh pindah fakulti macam tu

diorang duduk kolej kot

bagi je la kelas petang

macam **** je asyik nak mengalah

okay sorry

suatu perkara

aku tak suka commitment buat masa skrg

komitmen nak datang awal

komitmen nak cakap baik2

komitmen nak kena belikan top up utk orang padahal aku ada hal

etc

perkara remah , waktu busy

andai disentuh

diam mungkin perkara terbaik

for anyone

kalau ada sesiapa yang terasa ke

aku jawab macam nak tak nak

kalau kau tanya pasal assignment

kalau kau kata perkara yang aku dah kata aku tak suka

etc etc

aku biasa tak jawab , hanya diam

nak marah ke apa tak reti

aku tak tau la aku ni jenis apa

nak whining pun sorang2 kat sini lah
maaflah
aku memang begini

kadang

banyak sangat aku mengalah

pendam sendiri

aku tau , ada juga perkara yang orang mengalah

for me

tapi tak semua

aku hanya mampu doakan kebaikan utk mereka yang buat baik kepadaku

for years I havent meet my best friend

for years I didnt meet the one that I trust the most , but he left me

for a lot of things that I keep to myself

for everything that I can just pray the best for

what else others expect me to do?

I cant even handle myself

now what?

I hate expectations

I cant split myself and faking things

I am tired of it

for once I did it

I lost my trust entirely

for once I was hoping

I can just look at it and stare , do nothing , cry

now what?

I am not strong

I am tired

I know Allah gives me a lot of chances

I know that Allah knows that I can face all these

but for once , what I need is

space for me to be myself

for others to compromise how complicated I am

when I can consider about theirs

maaf , entry campur bahasa

aku tak perlu perjelas semua perkara

orang hanya akan faham surface sahaja

faham bagaimana pun mereka

mereka tiada di tempat saya

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me , 2.41 am

Annyeong ~ fanbase

For things that I have put my heart to it.
For a place that I decided to stay when my heart is broken because of 'those' people.
This fanbase helps and makes me feel a lot of things.

Thank you for these 9 months.

I will cherish every moments there.

Annyeong.