Saturday, December 31, 2011

i am not tough and strong enough .... sorry T_T


poeple
i am so sorry
i might seems strong out side
honest said 
i am NOT
i am just pretending
and ignoring it

it???
supposed to be them
well them ???

refers to everything
everything that i have
everything that i faced

yes
i can advice others
but when i need advice the most
everybody seems going away from me

idk why

i am such a loser right?

ok in this entry i want to express at least few percent of it
but i just wanna say i am sorry
because
i am not perfect

i am sorry

now
i just wanna 
let it go
at least
even i know
problems will never ends

YA ALLAH
please help me
i am begging

people
i am not a robot
i am not someone who cant cry
i am not someone who cant feel disappointed 

so please
i also need somebody to love me
to please me
to care about me
to understand me

dont avoid me
if u have problems with me 
say it
dont go away and 
make me feel that u dont need me anymore as a friend
even u dont say a thing about it
i just can feel it
and i feel i had make u annoyed with me
like seriously

do u think this is lame?
i dont mind

i am sorry
dont misinterpret this entry
please

i just need somebody

know what?
more people u know
you will understand how human behave actually
yes
i am also a human
thats y i said
i am not perfect

sorry
i am not strong to face everything alone
T_T

p/s : sorry, cant construct the sentence well , not in the good mood when i am writing this =='

Sunday, December 25, 2011

UiTM Kuantan Debate Audition

assalamualaikum and good day
tetiba rasa nak post pasal audition debate hari tu yg kami
(ahli kelab debat dan orator uitm kuantan) anjurkan

well 
basically aku handle debate laa
jadi one of the jury .... sebab dah in the club
sambutan memamg bestlah
ramai yg dtg ....

utk debat dan debate kami lakukan secara berasingan
tetapi di tempat dan masa yg sama
cuma kitorg buat asinglaa
sebab bahasa utk debat dan debate lain kan
haha

utk team bm 
kami lakukan audition utk debat dan pidato
dan utk english pulak
kami lakukan utk debate and public speaking

audition tu sampai petang kot
tapi kitorg semua enjoy
hehe

and that day hujan lebat sgt
so yg dtg audition tu kena cakap kuat2
tapi aku salute lah yg dtg audition tu
semua superb2 kot
congratz semuanya
yeah yeah

and ni cerita secara general jer
and after dah habis audition tu kitorg ( dak2 kelab) semua hang out
kira cam gatheringlaa
haha

its at megamall

we really enjoy our day 
and i miss that moment
hope our club can do better this semester
lets pray together
aite
peace out
wassalam
^____*



mid sem break

assalamualaikum and good day to everyone
aku rasa lama dah aku x post
xde masa dan aku malas nak bukak sebab line lambat gi le
ok abaikan
HAHA

mid sem break dah start
bermakna berakhir sesi kuliah dan telaah utk tahun 2011
sekejap jer kan?
result sem 1 , MUET , sem 2 , 
bla bla bla
semua rasa cam sekejap jer
sangat

dan aku rasa sem 2 nie cam mencabar gile
like seriously kalau kau lalai jap kau kena patah balik cepat2
xde masa dah nak kau kejar kalau kau tertinggal
camtu laa
ntah
haha

cam yg pernah aku baca dalam satu buku
kita semua ada 24 jam
semua orang , leh jer kalau kita susun apa kita nak buat betul2
cuma kita( especially diri inilah kan ) yg selalu terlalai ngan benda2 yg x perlu

haha
awal sem2
ada sth yg terjadi yg betul2 mengganggu kepala otak aku
alhamdulillah , aku ada kawan2 di sekeliling
bila aku try lupakan benda alah yg menyerabutkan kepala otak aku tu
lama2 ok dah

well actually honest said
kita selalu fikir benda yg x perlu difikirkan
selalu nak buat kepala otak kita serabut
tapi kadang2 kita x sedar pon
nak wat cam mana en

tapi
dalam sedar x sedar
bila susah baru kita cari tuhan
baru kita rasa ALLAH ada dgn kita

like what has been posted by my friend 
ஜ Walau tak ada ORANG sayang kita TAPI ALLAH ada dekat di hati kita,ஜ
ஜ Walau tak ada ORANG cinta kita TAPI ALLAH sentiasa KASIHI kita,ஜ
ஜ Walau tak ada ORANG tolong kita TAPI ALLAH ada LINDUNGI kita,ஜ
ஜ Walau tak ada ORANG rindu kita TAPI ALLAH tetap tunggu kita,ஜ
ஜ Walau tak ada ORANG jaga kita TAPI ALLAH perhatikan kita,ஜ
ஜ Walau tak ada ORANG dengan kita TAPI ALLAH ada temankan kita.ஜ

kau rasa kau sedar x?
satu benda aku nak highlight kat sini
sesusah mana pon kita
sedarlah
ALLAH TU SENTIASA ADA BERSAMA KITA

aku pon manusia
kadang2 terlalai
bukan2 kdg2 , selalu
aku kena akui benda tu

semua sama jer

so bila aku rasa mcm2 benda menimpa aku utk permulaan sem
aku fikir aku lack of sth
then i know
aku rasa jauh
jauh dariNYA
maksud aku 
things yang always gonna makes people calm is pray and mengaji , plus ngan zikir semualah kan
solat mmglah buat , cuma maksud aku yg tambahan2 tu
masa dan pelbagai faktot lain menjadi alasan lah apa laa

well , kalau kau cuba taqarrub dgn Allah
kau akan tenang
seriously tenang
xyah tnya ada bukti ke x
cuba kau try
kalau kau x tenang 
kau ada masalah ngan diri kau sebenarnya
mungkin

and one more thing
aku nak highlight jugak
kita ada family yg selalu support kita dari belakang
kawan2 pon ada

time aku serabut gile
kawan2lah yg banyak tolong
thanks to them

and i know through out my journey time study nie
kawan2 tu penting
sangatlah penting
so nasihat aku , pilihlah kawan dgn baik ye

and aku sedar 
asasi bnyk mengajar aku bnyk benda
aku enjoy sem 1
dan aku rindu sape2 yg mewarnai sem 1 dgn jayanya
dan utk sem 2
aku mengharapkan sesuatu yg lebih baik
bukan utk aku jer tapi utk semua

semoga segalanya berjalan lancar
dan aku harap semua org dapat anugerah dekan utk sem ini
dan kita semua sam2 further degree sama2 k

utk mid sem break nie
aku kena siapkan assignment
tenangkan fikiran
HAHA
and betulkan mana yg perlu diperbetulkan

ok
sorry kalau post nie cam berjela-jela
dan merepek
xtaulaa ada yg baca ke x
HAHA

hope for better tomorrow and forever
wish u a happy day
sorrylaa kalau ada wat salah pape kan
aite
peace out yawww

wassalam
^_____*

Friday, December 9, 2011

When it happened to start

assalamualaikum w.b.t
and hye

i think it has been a long time for me not updating my page here 
haha
honest said 
i dont have much time to visit this site

well
my second semester
its a hectic semester
haha
whereby everybody start to coop with the subjects
responsibilities
bla bla bla

and as for me
i face the same problems
and i know i need to manage everything properly

well its normal to have problems
but thing that i wanna emphasize  how you solve it

i realize , i have ALLAH in every single move that i make , 
so the best way is to back to HIM in everything that i face

i also have family beside me who always support me to move on further
friends who always there when i need them
it just whether i realize or not 
and i have everybody around me
well
simple said
im not alone
full stop

hee

there are a lot of things to be said but i dont have much idea on how to elaborate them
just
please pray for me so that everything is going to be ok
aite

AJA AJA HWAITING!!!

peace out
wassalam
^_____________*