i am not tough and strong enough .... sorry T_T

poeple

i am so sorry

i might seems strong out side

honest said 

i am NOT

i am just pretending

and ignoring it

it???

supposed to be them

well them ???

refers to everything

everything that i have

everything that i faced

yes

i can advice others

but when i need advice the most

everybody seems going away from me

idk why

i am such a loser right?

ok in this entry i want to express at least few percent of it

but i just wanna say i am sorry

because

i am not perfect

i am sorry

now

i just wanna 

let it go

at least

even i know

problems will never ends

YA ALLAH

please help me

i am begging

people

i am not a robot

i am not someone who cant cry

i am not someone who cant feel disappointed 

so please

i also need somebody to love me

to please me

to care about me

to understand me

dont avoid me

if u have problems with me 

say it

dont go away and 

make me feel that u dont need me anymore as a friend

even u dont say a thing about it

i just can feel it

and i feel i had make u annoyed with me

like seriously

do u think this is lame?

i dont mind

i am sorry

dont misinterpret this entry

please

i just need somebody

know what?

more people u know

you will understand how human behave actually

yes

i am also a human

thats y i said

i am not perfect

sorry

i am not strong to face everything alone

T_T

p/s : sorry, cant construct the sentence well , not in the good mood when i am writing this =='