manage things straight?

everyday

people might wondering

why am I doing this and so on

and things might getting harder 

as the only way to let go of that is null

and am here saying things related to myself

when I say that I need to study

the mood of not doing so will come out to attack my mind

when am on with my facebook and twitter 

i still get bored too

then

i dont even know what I should do

with this feeling

and with me myself

yet

am here updating my blog

even I know am not that good at writing

but I know the satisfaction of letting go of something is there

and now am forcing myself to read books

that is related to my course and not

am learning about corporate administration

and yet

still have to know about other things too

sometimes i don't have time to do so

this

am sure not only me who should stress on it

others also need to do it 

which is to explore other field of study

i could say

people nowadays

hate to read articles or things that might relate to other things 

because we only focus on textbook that is related to the course that we studying

from one point

I could see that

the implementation

of having all A's in academic 

has the highest place in the students' mind

same goes to adult

or parents too

the importance of having good attitude is never/rarely 

be the main topic to be discussed on

and now

am also living with that way of implementation

nothing much can be done

other than just tp follow the rules

graduate

then I can decide on my own

what I want to do

yet here

I don't want to join other things that might take my time on studying

but am sure I didn't spend 24/7 of doing so

am still wasting my time with other things

I don't understand that point of myself too

whatever it is

I know that I should do what I have started

and do my best at it

choices will always appear

in front of ourselves 

thus how we should at least 

try to be better than before

perhaps what happened in the past influence me a lot to be this way

afraid to try things that I have tried before

and degree ain't a good place to play around

but I still can't manage myself to the right track

i mean 

not as whole

but most of it

hope Allah will ease our way

achieving something bigger is what every one of us need

so do I

May Allah bless us always

and lead us to a better journey of life 

I don't know if am saying right things here

there're a lot of things that I want to say and write

and yet it might not be that proper in the establishment of ideas

hope you get my points

later :D