lost cloud

If I am going to post on a post

I will try my best to look at how I see things

though sometimes

thinking and considered about others

might be a better approach

I have problem with my sleep time right now

it honestly makes me tired

I will sleep after subuh and might wake up way before asr

which is really bad

honestly bad management ever

it makes myself tired

and can't really use what I have

to do what's best in a day

I am blaming myself

yes , no other should be put in line though

well , when you sleep like (the whole day)

and it comes to night

how can I say to myself 

" ouh , you need to sleep right now coz you need to put it back 

to what it supposed" ?

i mean

even if i stayed up

I don't really utilize it wisely though

which can be seen as sth stupid I might say

but I hope it will get better when I am home later

and right now

I honestly haven't cover much

exam is still on

well yes , posting this take my time too

blame on me again

I am just ...

well

I am no good person

will trying my best to improve

please

don't take all things that I said in sad way

as a problem

sometimes , I just need a space to say

things that bother me

though it might sound like a problem

if it relates to someone

when I want others to listen

I will just tell them

not a matter to point on anyone

coz i feel like I burdened others with my problems

which I dont really like it

coz I know

I didn't reply it back nicely

perhaps

even if I am online right now

I feel sad seeing how my brothers and sisters

being attack there

and how as a person

I can't really help them but with doa

I don't have space to complain here

although that might the thing that I always do

I am not an angel that can complete everything perfectly

I am still human

here I am standing

Ya Rabb

please , help my brothers and sisters

please give them the best reward for their fights

please let the other side see what humanity is

please please please

let all of our doa be their strength

May they have the best pace in this month of Ramadhan too

I am just .... T_T

can and only able to provide this small thing T_T