my miserable thoughts and solutions?

 

 

Hello bloggers

I think this entry will be a bit longer

I am saving all my thoughts in one post lols

hope you don't mind

 

main idea for this entry is what I thought about my surroundings

well , I have a lot

I am going to focus on two

 

 

 

1)  STUDY

 

Few days back

my partner and me are rushing for an assignment

we sent it a bit late

(okay  , that was our fault too)

but here is the story

 

what happened that day was

it was all arranged

but I did not print the document yet

and since it is documents for incorporation of an organization

thus , it is a lot to be done

and we have classes before from morning to evening that day

( submission day )

tbh , Alhamdulillah that our last class was cancelled

so we have some time to edit a bit and print

andddddddddd

my printer was run out of it's ink !

and my partner's too

the there are few documents left for completing the assignment

since there is not much options at our faculty

we have to find other option which to go out from uni

and find printing shop

so I stayed at the campus and my partner look for the shop

( we are doing this with my classmates too - they were with their partners )

 

after all the rush

we did finish it ( yeay )

 

what I want to write is what I see things around when all these happened

I do understand that my partner is the busiest girl ever

since she joined I think most communities and student council's etc

and she can still manage to do everything with me

 

and remember when I said that we are doing all these with our classmates?

there is a gap when my partner is out looking to where they can print the doc

so me and my other friend went to perform our prayer

after we finished it ( I have to admit it that we are a bit rushing )

and there is a moment when we stare at things

and my friend said this

 

 

" syaf , don't you think that we are so busy with all these things and can't really khusyuk with our solah? "

 

I replied

" ikr , even if we perform our prayers , there are things keep on pop-ing in our head on things that we need to settle "

 

~ END on the conversation ~

 

 

I do take that deeply

I am happy that Allah loves me by sending people around me to remind

me on how people can sometime forget

that all these things that we do

its because of HIM

 

come to think on it

we are studying because of HIM

we are able to live because of HIM

we are alive today is because of HIM

we can beat others and say we are good , because its HIM whose giving us that ability

we can shed tears sad scenes is because HE gives us feeling

reminding that we need HIM in our live

 

even if we are busy with all the responsibility

its to HIM that we need to come back eventually

 

 

 

 

2) INTEREST

 

well

I think if you always read my entries

its all full of KPOP etc

of how 'hardcore' I am with my idols

of how I admire them etc

of how they always teach me etc

of how I am mad when others saying bad things about all these things

 

I think most of you have come across that

 

' IT's NOT EASY TO CHANGE '

 

yes

I admit

I am changing a bit

I lessen my interest

but I am not saying that I am stopping or hating all these

 

I always see things differently

perhaps because I am too deep ( lols , I am not sure )

I still admire them

for all positive vibes that they have

but I am also a fan that understand

all these people are also human

I cant admire them forever

I cant let all these thought to fight for these people forever

because I have my life too

but I don't say that I wont post anything about them

just , its lesser

 

I only disclose that I am a fanbase admin to my close friends

and in this blog

I think its a responsibility too

just , I think I need some time to quit that position

which I need to discuss with other admin too

but idk if I can manage to do that

 

even now

I rarely online

usually , its only when there is notification

if not , NO

I am too lazy to check

unless I have nothing much to do and I check some times

but then I know nothing about the updates etc

when sometimes its tiring to keep on updating myself

about these human

nam saying?

 

but still I do check on them

just , lesser

and I don't even involve myself much thinking about other groups

since I am not updating?

lols , how am I supposed to explain this

I hope you got this

 

and there is one post

about how being a KPOPer can actually takes you far away from what you want in your life

well , I admit that

KPOP is not 100% bring positive values

to those who are in love with them

but I don't say that you learn nothing from them

its the same to when I love watching anime

 

its all about YOUR DECISION

 

as for KPOP

yes

I have been in a situation when I can even mad to other fans

fighting lalala

which now I think it sounds a bit ... stu**d

of how can I even do that

( but I don't say that you can win me either lols )

and there are time when I can be so 'BUSY' updating things lalala

 

when I am busy with my studies etc

I find that all these hobbies are a bit boring

updating and stuffs

because I have sth prior that I need to focus on

 

I still need to be a better person

OMG , I am so sad

that I cant even manage my financial properly

I still cant even let the phone or device when I am talking to others

I need to learn learn and learn a lot

so that I am not stayed behind

 

there are a lot of things to be done

yes , I am still updating myself

just lesser ( hope you got this )

and I am currently keep on reminding myself

its okay to start a bit late

than never

I might not be changed fully

because I am still me

I will still love all these Korean and Japanese songs

crying for how they are all so good looking etc

 

since I know I learnt a lot of positive things too

seeing how hardworking they are to achieve their position now

how they can be so well mannered around others

etc etc etc

( I can't explain all since its me who see the thoughts )

 

one cant say that you learn nothing from everything around you

that's being ignorant

and that will make you look stupid too ( opps sorry )

 

I meant

lets say

you walk around the town

and see old lady working so hard with her old body

working for a penny

cant you learn and see that

 

" HOW CAN I BE SO LAZY WHEN SHE CAN EVEN WORK WITH THAT BODY? "

 

" WHY AM I COMPLAINING ABOUT THESE SMALL AMOUNT OF WORKS WHEN OTHERS ARE CRYING AND WORKING HARD TO JUST GET A PLACE TO SLEEP? "

 

you can learn and have these thought

by seeing and using the brain that Allah gives you wisely

 

that's why I said

yes its not wrong to have interest

but its up to you on which you should choose or not

 

I might change my thoughts in next entries or arguments

and still posting about my bias etc

hope you wont judge me

 

and

in any entry that I wrote in

If you do think that I wrote it wrongly

or what I did is wrong

please tell me

 

somehow

I am so blessed that I have friends around

who always remind me

to not forget about Allah

and those who understand my interest

but keep on reminding me to not go beyond what it supposed to be

 

 

and I think

I am also stuck with this quote from my best friend

 

" you don't need to explain yourself to others "

 

and I do think I don't have to post the whole thoughts of mine here

since its hard to explain it all to others

 

 

 

to all these people

who are there with me

along this time

thank you so much

 

this entry is filled with my mixed thought

my weakness as human

and my strong side as a person

 

I have what I need in my life

and I will keep on searching and appreciate what I feel

because this is a chance that Allah gives me

to know which is right and wrong

and this process will keep on going

forever

 

A/N : sorry for any wrong said in this entry

thank you for reading